Saying goodbye to summer this year is very bittersweet. I certainly won’t miss the heat and smoky air everywhere. It’s because I knew that Fall could/would bring a lot of potentially different changes for me and for the first time in a very long time I don’t feel like I have a solid plan for my future and it scares the crap out of me.
I’ve always had a pretty good hold on the things that I’ve wanted and I knew exactly how to get there and was willing to put in the hard work to achieve them. At this moment in time, I still know the things that I want but they are feeling very far away and there could be a lot of gnarly hurdles along the way and I’m just trying to keep a brave face and wonder when the monster might rear his ugly head! I feel as if I’m standing out at sea on a very wobbly piece of driftwood and have to figure out my way back. I’m sure a lot of you have these same feelings right?
I had a couple weeks off from and decided to head out of San Francisco to visit my family, head to the lake as well as up to Oregon for some rest and relaxation which is where I took these photos. It was the perfect time to get away and clear my head because I knew as soon as I got back life and responsibilities were going to hit me square in the face! It’s been almost a week since I’ve been back and I’m just starting to gather my bearings again to the fast-paced city life I have here!
If any of you are feeling the same way I am right now I hope that I can bring some kind of comfort in reminding us of the great old quote that if your goals and dreams don’t scare the crap out of you that you aren’t dreaming big enough! Being in uncomfortable situations can end up being blessings in disguise and later down the road we couldn’t be happier that they happened to us. A good friend of mine once told me that she feels like life is a lot like Mario Cart. Just as soon as you’re driving around the obstacles and coming in 1st place you’re going to level up and then things start getting harder and harder. I hold on to that thought and just as I’m starting to feel like things are getting out of my control and start to challenge and make me uncomfortable I think to myself,”I must be getting ready to level up.” This too we will learn to conquer and then as soon as things start feeling easy again somewhere down the road you’re about to be thrown a curve ball (or in this case maybe a banana peel?) and make us level up again and again.
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